Don’t call Paul, call Saul

Like the Bible and the show,”Better call Saul “. Was not the apostle of the century and it had proven true in my experience as well ,

Paul is my father. Or the sperm that granted me life was given to him freely, and by conception of this capture in my mother egg sac, I bloomed.

Oh the relentless battle with this man, the persecution and torture I have put myself into after longing for his attention and love and self worth,

I have been killing myself trying to get him to love Me.

Literally, 2 suicide attempts, 3 seizures, multiple car accidents where they pulled me out and I don’t know how I got there and my last stint, was annilation of my body because my soul won’t die. I have tried .

And for some reason I am so purposelessly lead to believe that my father had my best interests at heart.

This guy has abandoned me since I was 5/6 years old .-