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Just #Doit4Ditka

The concept of this blog and website was from the help of my beloved companion, Ditka. He turns 4 years old on March 31, 2024. He has been through the darkest parts of my life, suicide attempts and complete annihilation of my being with alcoholism.

I wanted to open up about my struggles with mental health, addiction and open up about suicide. Suicide is misunderstood. It is scary, and it hurts the closest to us.

On September 4, 2023 I made a vow to Ditka Carmelo, that I would not hurt myself anymore and I would get help. I called an uber to the ER at Dell Seton, which has a psychiatric unit located at the E.R. Which basically means they are able to assist you better at getting you into a psychiatric facility or a mental hospital.

At this time, I had already checked in to 2 different psychiatric wards for suicide ideation. I was determined to buy a gun, and planned to travel to Canada. In reality, I was buying a gun to kill myself. I was scared, but when I looked at my little baby dog in the eye, I could not leave him. The summer of 2023, I got my ankle monitor off, I decided to go swimming in Lake Austin. I jumped off the boat dock, and tore my acl. This started the manic behavior, and escalated events quickly.

After arriving at Dell Seton, I discovered I had covid as well. They moved me to the 5th floor in isolation for 5 days then to Austin Oaks hospital.

Today, is March 26, 2024. I have completed 6 months of residential inpatient treatment for alcoholism. I am currently working full-time, started this blog and website, started my art business again, and have lost 40 pounds since Dec 1, 2023. Maybe more, I try not to weigh myself daily. I have a lot to be grateful for.

Thank you to everyone for your support in this journey. Remember to be kind to others, you never know what someone else is going through.



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