Willingness

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W. Willingness

“How the F -

Am I

supposed

to make it out of Here alive God”?-

“I am going to die alone, broke, homeless. Abandoned…. I would rather just take my life., no one wants me here anyway, I am just a burden to society and everywhere I go, I don’t fit in, I fdon’t want l like I am the misfit kid, I always have been, growing up my family was well known for their alcoholic destructiion and child protective services became involved at age 9. One year prior to my Mother Lynn, was in a nearly fatal car accident when she hit a suburban head on and was pinned underneath the hood while her car engulfed in flames as passenger bus pulled her through the bucket seats seconds before the headliner bust into flames. I was at the scene of the accident. 300 yards at Seratoma softball fields in Round Rock, Tx on county rd 113 and Sam Bass Rd.

The accident that changed the course of my life.

She survived but was handicap, broken, and abandoned by my father and ended up taking her own life by abuse of alcoholism and developmental ketoacodis, which she was diagnosed as a Diabietis 1 at the age of 8 yrs old.

He left her for another woman. And in the end, will always leave for another woman.

That’s what I have to accept.

God spoke to me this morning and told me to rest my worries aside.

Matthew 11:28

“If you are tired of carrying heavy burdens, come to me and rest”.

Let Go, and Let God.

I woke up at 3:33 am, that’s my angel number. I am constantly looking at the clock and it’s always at these intervals of time, such as my birthday, 11:18am or 333 or 911 or 5:37. Numberology places a vital role in my life.

Curious by numbers?

Let’s proceed..